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Good News – An email from Wed Apr 29, 2015 (edited to include information from Tues Apr 29)

April 29, 2015

From Tuesday 28 April:

Thanks for praying for me. We’re back at home. God was with me and gave me more peace and strength than I thought possible. No results as of yet, maybe later today or tomorrow. I’m still pretty concerned, but mostly very tired. Please pray that God would prepare my family and I for the test results. Thank you so much for praying. I appreciate your prayers more than you know. Maybe someday soon I will blog about the details of this test today, but know that if you’ve been praying for me God has heard you and faithfully answered. He is so GOOD and I am so thankful for you. May God bless you richly for your intercession for me. I pray that He will reveal Himself to you in a new way and you will know what a difference you are making in Heaven on behalf of a weak and weary sister.

Wednesday 29 April:

Hello Dear Loved Ones,

Very short version: Everything looks perfectly normal with my heart.

Here’s the long story. (Dad asked me to write this out and send it to you. Please read it all.)

Get ready for the RoLlEr CoAsTeR RiDe WhICh I WaS oN ToDaY.

I was doing my Bible study this morning and had just read and circled this quote:

“We can believe in Christ and we can believe Christ. Believing in Christ is the first step of faith and leads to salvation. But believing Christ is an ongoing process and requires a relationship. In the midst of our everyday living, we must believe Christ for who He is and what He promises He will do. Even when our circumstances scream otherwise because our physical eyes cannot see and our emotions cannot feel, we must believe. Even when all seems hopeless, we must believe.

I underlined that whole paragraph and put a box around the last sentence.

Then the phone rang.

It was Chris. He said, “Dr. C. sent you an email.”

I opened the email.

Here is what it said:

Melissa,
> The stress test results are available for review.
> I see your findings that suggest underlying heart disease, but always
> recommend you discuss the results with the cardiologist that ordered them.
> Let me know what questions you have.
> I can take a phone call this AM as I am not in patient care.

I was numb, sad, scared.

I did not want to talk to the doctor. (How dare he tell me this news like this?! This was not like the man I had believed him to be.)

I told Chris, “You call him. I don’t want to talk to him.”

Chris said he would.

Chris tried, but got voice-mail and then sent the Dr. an email.

I didn’t tell anyone here the news. I went into the bathroom and took a shower. And cried. Then I started to pray.

“O.k., Lord. I will trust You. No matter what. You say you have good plans for me. I’m going to trust that this is part of Your good plans for me and I will follow You.”

I got dressed and cried. I dried my hair and cried. I prayed some more.

I sent an email and asked Chris to call the Dr. back again and also call the Cardiologist at LRMC.

I wanted to know what was next.

I did some school with Hannah and Abby.

About 1 1/2 hours after the initial call from Chris the phone rang again.

Ugh. Sigh.

I picked it up.

“I have some GOOD NEWS!,” Chris practically yelled.

I thought, “OH, YA??!! Like what kind of good news could you possibly have?!”

He said,”The Dr. made a mistake! The email was supposed to say, “I see your findings that suggest NO underlying heart disease!”

“What?” I whispered, cried, sobbed.

More crying.

Hannah and Abby come running. Starting to rub my back.

“Mumma? Mumma?”

“It’s o.k., it’s o.k..” I sobbed.

Abby ran and got Chris’ mother to come.

She came. Strong hand, gentle voice, “O.k., what’s going on?” she whispered in my ear.

I quickly relayed everything that had gone on.

Chris said, “The Dr. wants to talk to you, but I said I wanted to call you first.”

I was very upset and said, “I don’t want to talk to him. You call him back and tell him not to call me.”

“O.k.”

We hung up.

I showed Chris’ Mom the first email. We cried together, prayed, praised God. Hugged. I am so glad that she was here for this.

I could not have left the kids to go and do the test yesterday if she had not been. It grieved me so much to think of them here alone, worried about me.

(In the interim, Chris called the Dr. and told him not to call me.)

We sat in the living room and I told my story of my morning to Mom and the girls. Mom shared some things from her prayer journal, things about me. (Ian was in bed. 🙂 )

Chris called back and said that the doctor was very upset with himself. He wanted to give Chris the phone number to report the incident. When Chris said no that we didn’t want to do that, the doctor said he was going to report on himself. He felt very sorry and guilty.

I didn’t want him to report on himself or feel bad, so I wrote him the following email:

Dear Dr. C.,
>
> I want to make sure you know how much I appreciate you. Honestly, I
> don’t like doctors in general. You are 1 of 3 doctors that I’ve met
> that I trust, admire and am very fond of. God has used you in my life
> in ways that you don’t understand. My health, especially my heart have
> been a GOLIATH in my life. I had to face this giant and God used you
> to get me there. Your time, patience, openness, understanding, empathy
> and investment in me have allowed me to take steps that I never thought
possible.
>
> When I read your email this morning I was upset. Not only with the
> results, but with you. I thought, “This is not the man that I have
> been meeting with and trusted! Wow! This hurts. Why did he tell me this
news in this way?”
>
> I went in the bathroom and took a shower and cried. I told God,
> through sobs, “O.K., I don’t understand this, but I’m going trust you
> no matter what.”
>
> So, I wanted to let you know that I was upset and hurt that you would
> tell me that news in such a way. However, I should have known better
> and I do not hold this against you in any way. God used your mistake
> to allow me to surrender my health to Him again and practice trusting Him
more.
>
> Chris used another Biblical example when I was talking to him after he
> talked to you. I told Chris about crying out to God and surrendering
> everything to Him again. He said, “You needed to lay your Isaac on the
> alter. Then God provided the ram.”
>
> I really love the Old Testament names of God. He is showing me how
> true these names are of Him.
>
> * El Shaddai (Lord God Almighty)
> * El Elyon (The Most High God)
> * Adonai(Lord,Master)
> * Yahweh (Lord,Jehovah)
> * Jehovah Nissi (The Lord My Banner)
> * Jehovah-Raah(The Lord My Shepherd)
> * Jehovah Rapha (The Lord That Heals)
> * Jehovah Shammah (The Lord Is There)
> * Jehovah Tsidkenu(The Lord Our Righteousness)
> * Jehovah Mekoddishkem(The Lord Who Sanctifies You)
> * El Olam(The Everlasting God)
> * Elohim (God)
> * Qanna(Jealous)
> * Jehovah Jireh (The Lord Will Provide)
> * Jehovah Shalom (The Lord Is Peace)
> * Jehovah Sabaoth (The Lord of Hosts)
>
> Please don’t be upset with yourself. I have forgiven you. I hope you
> have a good day and know how much Chris and I appreciate you.
>
> Sincerely,
> Melissa

I tried to send the email, but the internet was down. Sarah had popped a circuit. She fixed it for me.

I sent the email.

I picked some lilacs.

Then I had lunch. 🙂

Then the phone rang again. A doctor from LRMC calling, the one who had ordered the Nuclear Medicine test.

“Mrs. Lane?”
“Yes.”
“Dr. So&so. Calling with your results from your Nuclear Medicine test yesterday at LRMC?”
“Yes?”
“Everything looks perfectly normal. So the first test was a false positive, just as we suspected.” (He had NOT said anything like that to me before!)
“O.K., thank you.”

Finished lunch. Talked with Mom and Sarah about God, Franklin & Billy Graham, Communism and Politics. 🙂

Cleaned up from lunch.

God told me, “I want you to call your Dad. Now.”

So I did. It was so good to hear his voice and be able to give him good news!

He asked me to write this all out in an email for you to read.

So here I am, writing this email. (And thinking that I might turn it into a blog post at lanesinthepromisedland.)

And Praising God.

I love you,
Melissa

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